Wednesday, June 29, 2011

What singing for God really sounds like....

I have never been particularly fond of Carrie Underwood.  Not that I don't like her... I think she is a perfectly good country singer, however I never thought she had the vocals to be an American Idol winner.  Especially one that people continue to compare to Kelly Clarkson, now there is a powerhouse!

But after watching this chilling performance of Carrie belting out "How Great Thou Art", I might have to rescind my previous opinion of her.  This might be one of the best performances of this song I have ever seen.  She is vocally perfect, and more importantly sings from the heart.  You can really tell she is singing every word for God... and from the audiences reaction... they felt it too! UNBELIEVABLE! CHILLS CHILLS CHILLS!!!!

Thursday, June 23, 2011

2012

Is anyone else getting a little wary about the impending doom of 2012?  Not gonna lie... I'm worried.  Major earthquakes, crazy tornadoes, sink holes all over the world, mass animal deaths, floods... kind of sounds like armageddon to me.  I'm not saying I believe the Mayans and Nostradamas... but I'm not saying they are a joke either.

A few days ago there was an article about a study that predicts mass extinctions in ocean life...

"Life in the oceans is at imminent risk of the worst spate of extinctions in millions of years due to threats such as climate change and over-fishing, a study showed on Tuesday.

Time was running short to counter hazards such as a collapse of coral reefs or a spread of low-oxygen "dead zones," according to the study led by the International Programme on the State of the Ocean (IPSO).

"We now face losing marine species and entire marine ecosystems, such as coral reefs, within a single generation," according to the study by 27 experts to be presented to the United Nations."

Just saying... everyday it seems there is something in the news of some natural disaster, fire, or mass animal deaths, I'm getting a little nervous over here.

Humiliation & Forgiveness

I will say right here and now, that I have a major problem with forgiveness.  I have never been able to master that virtue.  I don't know how to get pass being betrayed or hurt or heart broken by someone I once trusted.

Recently I was faced with a situation where I thought I had grown as a person and learned to forgive a friend that had humiliated me.  Maybe the circumstances of the humiliation are key.  I was ditched and left to spend what was suppose to be an awesome night alone with the revelation that these people who I believed to be good friends, in fact did not feel the same way about me.  That all the poking fun and teasing, was not just innocent fun and games, but underlaid with truth.  It was like a ton of bricks hitting you right in the chest.  Utter humiliation.

Later, I got a relatively genuine apology where the ditcher said it was unintentional.  After several "I'm sorrys" I forgave him.  And I really thought I had.  I continued the friendship via phone calls and text.  However, the next time we met and hung out, just seeing him brought everything back.  It was like his mere presence made me feel that humiliation, hurt and bitterness all over again.

If you continue to have those feelings everytime you see that person, how do you make it to real forgiveness?  How do you get back to the friendship you once had?  How do you reach peace with that person?  I am at a loss.  And I fear there is nothing that anyone can say to me to help.  It will merely have to be something I work on with God Himself.  Hope and pray that He can provide me with some guidance.